This is the 3rd month of the year. A quarter had passed just like that. Although it is only 3 months, a lot of things had happened. A lot of things both the good and the bad.
CNY this year was really quiet and different. A lot of changes. I din get to go to my aunt's house like past years. Someone dear to all of us were not there anymore. Though we looked happy, though we might laugh here and there, we all know, deep down, all of us ain't happy as before. I guess time don't really heal everything. The pain will still be there for the loss is permanent.
Next came the pre-vday celebration at jewel box. This was my first time taking the cable car from Mt Faber & I was the one who drove up there!!! Wahaha! We had a really good time dining up in the air. All these couldn't have been made possible without my dear silly. Silly dear, I know I have said this many times, but still, thank you for everything. For all your efforts and the surprise bouquet of roses. Your entrance into my life has really created a lot of wonderful moments and memories for my used to be mundane life.
Straight after the celebration, it is the long awaited trip. I shall say that on the whole, the trip was quite relaxing though there were some hiccups here and there. The major one will be my silly dear hurting himself!!! All thanks to the laser quest. This silly boy still attempted to make jokes with so much blood coming of the wound and when I'm already scared stiff.... But glad he is fine... Silly, don't worry k? the scar will not affect your image. Oh well, maybe there might be but minimal k? :) Your eyebrow will do the trick! :) A different experience and hopefully we can go again, this time with a bit more ppl.
Managed to catch the episode of Homecoming on Jessica Liu. This episode touched my heart. Somehow I could relate to this.
1) Her relationship with her mom is similar to mine. We know the importance of each other but we never display our affections outrightly. We are people who have difficulties expressing our emotions to people who are dear to us. That scene of her and her sister presenting the personalized gift to their mother really made me very touched.
2) The friendship which she had with Ann Kok. She mentioned that she don't need to have a lot of friends for she has Ann, her soulmate and it is enough. How true that is. You just need someone who can be there for you all the while. Be it 'on stage' or 'off stage'. That will be enough to keep you going. At that moment, I really wonder. Who is the 'Ann Kok' in my life? Do I even have one? Yep, maybe I once had. Maybe I still do. But what about in future? At their age, will I still have anyone who is in that category? At times I really wonder. But for now, I just hope that in future, I'll be close to her 'level'...
Fate really plays a part in our lives. I have no doubts about it.
So many entrance and exits in my past 20odd years... So much that I do not dare to pin much hopes about anything.
You may think you have found someone whom you can really confide to... someone whom you can bare your heart to. someone...someone who you once believed that will always be there for you. Oh well, don't be silly. That may never happen at all. Similar to you, there will be people entering and exiting for his/her life. Priorities will change. Perhaps his/her thinking has changed. Even if he/she did not change on his/her own, the people surrounding them may result in their changes. Don't be silly. You won't be that important that he/she will stop his/her world from spinning just for you. Unless you are that important one for him/her. So snap out of it. Don't let him/her get you down just cos of all the past promises, childhood faithless promises. For all you know, you really don't mean a thing.
Perhaps it will be hard for you to find another one to open your heart to, perhaps you find it hard to close up the connecting door. But perhaps you will survive and will be fine?? Just take it easy, let go and all will be fine. =)
I've understand this. What about you?
From now onwards, I'll work hard for myself for the people who really love me. And I will take note of my words and make good of my words.
For those who I've hurt with my words, be it intentionally or not, be it my promises or criticisms, I'm sorry. I will try my best to avoid that in future.
CNY this year was really quiet and different. A lot of changes. I din get to go to my aunt's house like past years. Someone dear to all of us were not there anymore. Though we looked happy, though we might laugh here and there, we all know, deep down, all of us ain't happy as before. I guess time don't really heal everything. The pain will still be there for the loss is permanent.
Next came the pre-vday celebration at jewel box. This was my first time taking the cable car from Mt Faber & I was the one who drove up there!!! Wahaha! We had a really good time dining up in the air. All these couldn't have been made possible without my dear silly. Silly dear, I know I have said this many times, but still, thank you for everything. For all your efforts and the surprise bouquet of roses. Your entrance into my life has really created a lot of wonderful moments and memories for my used to be mundane life.
Straight after the celebration, it is the long awaited trip. I shall say that on the whole, the trip was quite relaxing though there were some hiccups here and there. The major one will be my silly dear hurting himself!!! All thanks to the laser quest. This silly boy still attempted to make jokes with so much blood coming of the wound and when I'm already scared stiff.... But glad he is fine... Silly, don't worry k? the scar will not affect your image. Oh well, maybe there might be but minimal k? :) Your eyebrow will do the trick! :) A different experience and hopefully we can go again, this time with a bit more ppl.
Managed to catch the episode of Homecoming on Jessica Liu. This episode touched my heart. Somehow I could relate to this.
1) Her relationship with her mom is similar to mine. We know the importance of each other but we never display our affections outrightly. We are people who have difficulties expressing our emotions to people who are dear to us. That scene of her and her sister presenting the personalized gift to their mother really made me very touched.
2) The friendship which she had with Ann Kok. She mentioned that she don't need to have a lot of friends for she has Ann, her soulmate and it is enough. How true that is. You just need someone who can be there for you all the while. Be it 'on stage' or 'off stage'. That will be enough to keep you going. At that moment, I really wonder. Who is the 'Ann Kok' in my life? Do I even have one? Yep, maybe I once had. Maybe I still do. But what about in future? At their age, will I still have anyone who is in that category? At times I really wonder. But for now, I just hope that in future, I'll be close to her 'level'...
Fate really plays a part in our lives. I have no doubts about it.
So many entrance and exits in my past 20odd years... So much that I do not dare to pin much hopes about anything.
You may think you have found someone whom you can really confide to... someone whom you can bare your heart to. someone...someone who you once believed that will always be there for you. Oh well, don't be silly. That may never happen at all. Similar to you, there will be people entering and exiting for his/her life. Priorities will change. Perhaps his/her thinking has changed. Even if he/she did not change on his/her own, the people surrounding them may result in their changes. Don't be silly. You won't be that important that he/she will stop his/her world from spinning just for you. Unless you are that important one for him/her. So snap out of it. Don't let him/her get you down just cos of all the past promises, childhood faithless promises. For all you know, you really don't mean a thing.
Perhaps it will be hard for you to find another one to open your heart to, perhaps you find it hard to close up the connecting door. But perhaps you will survive and will be fine?? Just take it easy, let go and all will be fine. =)
I've understand this. What about you?
From now onwards, I'll work hard for myself for the people who really love me. And I will take note of my words and make good of my words.
For those who I've hurt with my words, be it intentionally or not, be it my promises or criticisms, I'm sorry. I will try my best to avoid that in future.
A song so touching yet meaningful...