Tuesday, May 31, 2005

YGYM'05

Finally had e time to blog abt it le… so tis will be a long entry…haf been reali bz tis few days… bz catchin up w my slp n w my work… yep! Yang Guang You Miao’05 has finally cum to an end… I’m supposed to feel glad abt it… but then… ya… on sat nite, after our last show, I felt relieved… cos there wun be tis worry abt makin mistakes or wat… but then soon, there’s tis feeling of loss inside me… As our finale ended, as we sang e various songs… I noe tt that will be e last time I go on stage le… I guess it’s not only me… many of e others will also haf tis feelin ba… after weeks of hard work, our production had finally ended in jus 3 short shows… all our efforts were paid off… but isn’t it a lil’ too fast? It’s like only yday wen we started preparing for it but now, it has alr ended… haiz~ Duno how to say but it’s like tis YGYM production has allowed me to learn lots of stuffs… Let me noe how is it reali like to be involved in a drama production… e procedures and e hard work tt we’ve to put in… yep… Today wen I returned to sch for GP lect in e audi, it suddenly dawned upon me tt there’s no more YGYM for all of us le… we wun be stayin in e audi for long hours for rehearsals and everything… It’s kinda sad but I guess it’s normal ba… will get over it soon de…
Gained quite a lot tru YGYM’05… made new frens… Weisheng & Mark frm 04S21… Gao Wen- a J1 etc… yep! Spent e last 3days of term2 w em… got to noe em better as time passes… just wen we were abt to bcum closer frens, our fate has sorta ended, tog w e finale of our last show… Anyway, I’d like to express my heartfelt thanks to all those who supported YGYM’05! Thanks Tsai for ur support and rose!!! U r always so supportive of SA’s drama! Thanks and love ya!!! Thanks shuxian, xiaoyuen, yulin, grace, ler, xj, yidian, amos for taking time to go for e play!!! Thanks rose, soonhui, bro, weizhe, yeongtay for ur time too! Don say u guys are not bein appreciated by us k? all of us appreciated ur presence! At least u guys take time to turn up ma…rite? thanks a lot k??? Oh ya! Was kinda surprised wen mrs choo said she can make it to e play la! Watched our first show which e few of us think tt it’s e best out of e 3… yep! Thanks for her support too! It has been a long time since we’ve heard from her… kinda glad tt she managed to watch and saw her again… yep! Enuff abt YGYM’05 le ba…
After our last show, CS act had booked chalet… but due to sum reasons, I decided not to go for it… yep… So decided to go sx’s hse to stayover w xiaoyuen… e guys stayover at ler’s hse loh… went over to ler’s hse to go for supper tog… Funshen joined us shortly aft tt too… haha~ it’s like gg for a gang fight la… cos it’s past midnite and there were like… 10 of us??? Haha~ Me, sx, xy, ler, xj, amos, yidian, jc, yeongming & chok! Haha~ plus funboy it’d be 11 le! quite a big grp I guess… after supper, went back to sx’s n ler’s hse loh… was watching "EYE 10" wen I fall aslp… haha~ miss out sum parts la… after tt, played PS for few hours b4 I went back to slp while sx n xy con’t playin… woohoo! I was like slpin on pirate ship??? Cos e 2 of em were so excited w their games tt they kp ‘jumpin’ … haha~ funny la e 2 of em… The nxt mornin, went to mac for breakfast w e guys again b4 gg ler’s hse to play again… eh… I was reali tired la… cos din had gd slp for e past few days due to YGYM ma… so was reali stoning loh… furthermore, e sense of loss had appeared and I reali don feel like doin anything.. .yep… so, sorry if I affected any1 of u w my ‘stoning’… tt’s all ba…it’s reali a super long entry… cant reali write much here too… haha~ certain feelings are v.diff to write out de… so long guys… enjoy ur holidays!!!

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Half day=== Amityville Horror

Haha~ today’s half day came as a surprise to all of us… but I’m glad we finally had a half day… a reward for all e sportsmen n sportswomen! Haha~ my lesson ended at 10.45am la… slacked til 12.45pm b4 proceeding to Plaza Singapura to catch e movie… duno wat to say but tis movie’s damn scary… v.gross too la… first time watch movie feel like pukin! Haha~ I can say tt 04s76 gers are all v.bold! e 9 of us went to catch e movie la… none of e guys join us… haha~ it’s a pity tt ziyan din join us… if not, it’d reali be a 76 gers movie outing! Haha~ duno wat to say but tis movie reali did e trick! From e past horror movies I’ve watched b4, tis is e worst ba… I admit tt I covered my ears for most of e nites in e show… haha~ cos I always feel tt it’s e sound effects tt scares me e most but not in tis movie… e scenes oso scare me! Haha~ it’s quite stressful watchin a horror movie act… haha! aft e whole show, all of us were like crazy… pokin here and there… shant elaborate too much… don wan spoil e fun for those who wan to watch… haha~ went to took neos after tt too… November 13, 1974, 3.15am! I’ll nv forget tis! Haha~ Yulin they all went for a haircut aft tt so we din join em and left la… haha~


today’s my last day for tis term le…wun b gg4 lessons tml… duno shld be happy or sad abt it… happy cos I dn nd to face certain ppl, do tutorials… worried cos scared cant catch up w work after tt… haha~ anw, aft tis wk I’ll be free but I’ve figured out tt e feelin of lost will be back once again after Saturday… duno la… May YANG GUANG YOU MIAO 2005 be a success! Thanks for everyone who haf supported us! Thanks!

Sunday, May 22, 2005

MY BELOVED CLIQUE!!!

Haha~ Finally met up w em yday!!! It was reali a long day for me yday… reached sch at 8.30am (wen I left at only 9.40pm e nite b4)… After tis week, I’ll be FREE again!!! Met up w sharon n tsai at somerset… cos yilin had alr reached ages ago!! Haha~ went to Yoshinoya to eat and tt’s where e whole ting started… our chat session!!! Haha~ b4 we realised, we’ve alr sat there for 2hrs… listening to each other updates in sch n life… After all e tokin and listening… finally realised tt I’m not alone… I’m not e only one facing all those probs… hafin all those kinds of feelings… all of us are experiencing e same ting… I tink it’s cos of e various sch cultures… NH culture too gd le… tt’s y all of us are at e losing ends… haha~ seeing tsai so upset, all of us can feel e pain for her too… felt so helpless cos I cant or rather duno how to help her… reali cant bear to see her feelin so hurt… wat can I do??? I reali dun haf any idea of how to do so… haiz~ Feel like gifin all of em a big hug!!! To let em noe how much I missed e times I spent w em… how much I cherish em… I duno how to describe e feeling la… haha~ aft Yoshi, we went to take neos! Haha~ it’s so much fun la… n e mood lightens up~ but haha~ we were too slow in e last process n e neos came out so small la... we decided to take again but only aft we ate e yummy chocs ice cream! Haha~ first time watched cartoon w em while eatin e ice cream… yummy! N we con’t tokin again loh… it’s reali gd to tok to em n listen to em… den we went back to take neos again! Haha~ belinda n shuxian turned up at e neoprint machines and tried to ‘ga jiao’ us la… tsk tsk~ haha~ made us look so malu… haha~ but still, e neoprints we took are SUPER NICE!!! Reali like em a lot! Haha~ lookin at e neoprints itself cheers me up loh! It was almost 10.30pm wen we finished takin neos for e 2nd time la… so we decided to go hm after tt… was quite unwilling to do so but I was reali too tired le… lack of slp… Althou tsai seemed to haf cheer up aft takin e neos, I stil tink tt deep down, e incident stil bothers her a lot… reali hope tt I’ll be able to find a solution to her prob soon… Duno if tsai and yilin will get to see this but anw, jus wana let em noe sth…

Tsai: I noe tt tis stupid world is causing all of us to change… all of us will change but I’m sure our friendship wun change so easily de… k? Even if e whole world is against u, u can count on us for our support! Even if we’ve to grow up into ppl we don like to be… u are as precious to us as we are to u… haf trust in us n our friendship! We’ll always be here for u!

Sharon: Althou life’s not as smooth as we wish… althou we cant see each other everyday… don forget tt anything u can jus call us up k? Mayb in times of life we cant stand e ppl ard us… E way they do or watever… but we cant do anything to change em too… not everyone is e who we want em to be… no 2 persons are similar… not even twins… so we cant expect too much oso…rite? I guess all of us haf to learn to be partially deaf n blind… see wat we only wish to see and hear wat we only want o hear… Perhaps in tis way our life would be easier ba…

Yilin: I noe sum1’s botherin ur life in sch… jus ignore her ba… let it go and u wun be unhappy all e while le... rite? try to look on e other side of life… mayb watever she does now irritates u… but don haf to get so upset over her ma…rite? perhaps gif her a chance? Not accept her or wat la… jus treat her as a v.normal fren… accept her for how she’s like and get on w ur life w/o her irritatin u and hindering u frm enjoyin ur life… k? Take it easy n don be too upset over her le… not gd for ur health oso… k?

Just Wana let u guys noe…
"I LOVE U GUYS AND PLEASE TAKE V.GD CARE OF URSELF COS U GUYS MEAN TOO MUCH TO ME LE!!!"

Thursday, May 19, 2005

把爱放开

作词:F.I.R./谢宥慧 作曲:F.I.R. 编曲:Terence Teo

我们的爱 过了就不再回来 直到现在我还默默的等待

当你开始追寻你要的自由 放开我们紧握的手 带走我的爱和天空
我不知所措 我以为我会懂 我们的爱 我们的爱

*当我独自走到时间的尽头 回忆和我擦身而过 带走你的爱和笑容  
我无力承受 最后的一点心痛 我们的爱 我们的爱

#把爱放开 把手放开 如果你的心已不在  
把爱放开 不再等待 你的温柔是一片空白  
把爱放开 把心打开 这次我决定走出 回忆重来  
就让我彻底地伤 再彻底地醒过来 就让我彻底地伤 再彻底地醒过来

Repeat *,#

终于明白爱已不在 从今以后再也没有什么能去依赖 我还有什么期待

把爱放开 把手放开 如果你的心已不在
把爱放开 不再等待 你的温柔是一片空白
把爱放开 把心打开 这次我决定走出所有回忆重来
就让我彻底地伤 再彻底地醒过来
就让我彻底地伤 再彻底地醒过来

fall in love wif tis song...nice nice...hope u guys can see it...

Surprised~~~~

Was reali surprised today… almost threw e letter away la… cos e design on e envelop wasn’t familiar n it seems to be like those kinda advertisment brochures… PHEW! It was a mail from LANBO!!! Reali surprised la… cos it has been a long time since he replied me le… anw, I’m sure most of u will wan to noe how he’s doin in LA ba… He’s stil e same old lanbo… w cursive handwriting… he’s learning driving now… yep! Tt’s about all tt he has said… sum of e stuffs cant mention here la… of cos… haha~


Anw, today met up w sharon, belinda n yilin… haha~ not bad siaz… quite fun la… but I was reali too tired to ‘contribute’ to e conversation… spent most of e time listening to Yilin tokin abt SUMONE… n sharon gg crazy over …. again… haha! ate @ Pizza Hut… actually got students’ price la… but none of us realised tt til we reached hm la… haha~ so funny… took lots photos today… quite fun siaz… tml takin class photo… hopefully, it’ll turn out nice la… yep! Meeting tsai they all on sat!!! yesh!!! It has been a long time… a REALI LONG time since e 5of us go out for dinner together le… hope everything’ll turn out fine!!!


Everyone out there: haha~ I’m ok la… duno la… jus feel down aft readin sum stuffs… haha~ it’s kinda funny la… it’s better to tok abt such stuffs in here ba… seems to me it’s harder to talk abt happy stuffs here… haha


Pong: Don worry… I’m fine de… k?yep! reali lookin fwd to JUNE HOLS! let's play badminton again!!!

DIL: u good! dao me...don reply my sms... heartbroken le... i've simple plan cd la.. haha~i like em too!

Shuxian: i din bluff u ah...wen u ask me, i'm fine already...don worry... haha~

Xiaozhu: sorry abt mon... nxt time k?yep! let's tok more again~

Shuhui: ya... i'm fine k? don worry~

Monday, May 16, 2005

*untitled*

~~~~where r they wen i needed em??? feelin so lost n confused... will i ever see e light tt will brighten up my path??? feeling suffocated... haha~ suddenly duno wat to blog abt... it has been a long time since i blog but *shrug* there's jus nuttin to blog abt... certain tings jus cant be mentioned here... haha~ ppl cum n go in life... certain ppl can jus suddenly MIA out of e sudden... wen sms gets lesser n lesser... meetings too... but i guess tt's life... don worry la...i'm not sad or wat...k? so shuxian,don worry... haha~ too many tings had happened... no longer feel sad abt such stuffs... even if haf, it shld be feelin e pity ba... haha~ i guess we reali nd to cherish e ppl ard us... sum ppl get together jus to survive e day... do they reali care for each other??? haha~ i reali wonder...how much do u care for e ppl ard u? how much do they care for u? wat's gg on w e ppl here?~~~

Me Against the World--- SIMPLEPLAN
nice song...reali speaks how we feel at times...

We're not gonna be just a part of their game
We're not gonna be just the victims
They're taking our dreams and they tear them apart

To everyone's the same
I've got no place to go
I've got nowhere to run.
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
Me against the world

It's me against the world
We won't let them change how we feel in our hearts
We're not gonna let them control us
We won't let them shove all their thoughts in our heads
And we'll never be like them

I've got no place to go
I've got nowhere to run
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
It's me against the world
World….world…world…Me against the world
World….world…world…Its me against the world.(scream)

Now I'm sick of this waiting
So come on and take your shot
You can spit out you insults
But nothing you say is gonna change us
You can sit there and judge me
Say what you want to
We'll never let you win.

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own

Me against the world
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own

I've gotta prove them wrong
They'll never bring us down
We'll never fall in line
I'll make it on my own
Me against the world

Monday, May 09, 2005

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Cherish!~~

It hurts to lose sumone whom u reali cherish a lot… it hurts wen u lose sumone whom u love… It hurts wen u lose sumone whom u r close to… it reali hurts… Please don regret only after wen u lost e sumone whom u reali don wish to lose… So cherish! Do cherish em n u’ll realise cherishing sum1 u love isnt a very difficult task!!!


It’s Mothers’ Day today! HAPPY MOTHERS’ DAY TO ALL E WONDERFUL MOTHERS IN E WORLD!!! I love my mom… my grandmas… May they be blessed with good health throughout e years!!! Heard sum stuffs recently from my mother… I reali hope it isnt true… but wen I visited her e other day… I guess there’s sum truth to a certain extent in e stuffs my mom told me… stil cant reali accept but I guess it’s part of life… I certainly hope tis yr wun be e last… I don wish for it to be true… Frankly speaking, I don feel good now… perhaps it’s better tt way but I dun wish for tt to happen too… Rite now, I’m just gg to cherish all e ppl ard me… esp my family members… I hope to spend more time w em… esp…. yesh… I hope everyone will do tt too… Afterall, I guess they are e only ones who wun backstabbed u or betray u cos they are our loved ones… n we are their loved ones too… Dun reali wish to tok abt such stuffs… Don reali noe who to tok to abt it oso and e most important reason is that I’m afraid I cant control my own emotions wen I tok abt it… so I guess e best ting is to write tis here… and thus, pls don ask me abt tis if u r reading tis… enuff abt tis le ba…


Dil & Cla : I hope everything’s gg smoothly in sch now… Don be too upset over all e tings tt happened… At least u two still haf each other… so life’s stil isnt tt bad afterall…Take Care!


Sharon, Yilin & Tsai: Meet up soon k? Miss u guys like crazy! Miss e times we chatted… Hope u guys are all doing well in sch n everywhere! Haha~ Pls take very good care of urself too! Don wana lose u guys!


Soonhui: Don Keep MIA… Dil miss u a lot… rem to contact her wenever u r free… meet up for a meal stm soon ba k? Persevere on ur diet program too!!!


Shuxian & Pong: Don be upset over SYF liao… it’s an experience for all k? Nuttin’s fair in tis world… u gain sth, u lose sth… one can be more fortunate or misfortunate in one way or another… be optimistic!


Shuxian: Thanks for all e help u’ve given… all e past encouragements! Tis yr’ll cum to an end very soon! Hope everything will go smoothly for u! take very very good care of ur CREAMIE TOO!!!

Pong: Don tink too much stm k? everyting'll turn out fine de... anything, ur frens r here k?=)


TL: Thanks for ur concern… hope you’ll be able to find sum LIFE in ur Life n be able to save up for all e stuffs u wan to get…


Xiangjing: One year n 3months of friendship liao! Haha~ not one yr n 5months k? Dn nd to b so polite… haha~ Work hard for studies k? Don be so stressed up!!! =)


Shuhui: Happy bday !!! May all ur wishes cum true… Drink plenty of water too! Work hard for YGYM!!!

Tired…sick of life

Haiz~ life’s been monotonous recently… it’s all abt lectures, tutorials, tests n ccas… nuttin interesting… wanted badly to go watch matches but cca tied me down… it’s nearing production date… so I guess sacrifices r inevitable… My apologies to xiaoyuen, yulin n xiangjing… stil cudnt make it for movie in e end… in e end, left sch at 8.45pm on Fri la… yday reach sch at 8.45pm! My god! Stuck in audi siaz… haha~ went out to search for stuffs twice la… so tired man… haha~ but in a way, it’s better than stayin in e audi all e while ba…

Lotsa stuffs happened recently… realised how fragile relationships can be… even a lil’ ting can triggered everything off n ‘terminate’ all e relationships… made me so unsure of all my relationships w e ppl ard me… who are reali my frens??? Who r reali true n honest w me? Am I treating all those who r true n honest w me nicely? Am I neglecting anyone of them? Haiz~ I reali duno… heard lots friendships probs… too many le… haven been so unsure n insecure before… mayb it’s better off being alone?? In this way, one wun be hurt wen he/she is betrayed by frens cos in e first place, he/she wun get involved in any friendships or put in too much efforts… haha~ mayb it’s true… maybe it isn’t… Wouldn’t it be better to keep sum of e questions in ur heart? Don ask n u wun be upset after hearing all e answers which u predicted n don reali wish to hear e answers? Haha~ yep! It’s true in a way… but if u don ask, u’ll never haf answers to e doubts tt u kept deep in ur heart… rite? Yesh! Life’s full of contradictions… No matter wat one did or don’t, one will haf to answer for his/her actions… Maybe it’d be better not to contribute or put in too much??? Haha… Cos stm I feel tt those who contribute e least tends to be e most fortunate… cos ppl ard him/her wld be tryin their best to contribute to salvage or maintain their relationships?? Life’s full of unanswered questions anyway… Each and everyone will haf their own answers to those questions…

Haha~ I’m crappin again… duno wat’s gotten into me… don ask me wat am I tokin abt… cos stm even me myself has no answers for em… but does it reali matters???