2nd wk of 2008- fulfilling yet bz!

bz bz wk!

with cleanin up my hse...

with e energy+time consuming bday present.

tried to make my hse more decent lookin for e steamboat on wed nite.

tiring...

to prepare for food & clean up e hse.

ages since i c my hse so tidy.

yet, there r still more room for improvement. :P

had lunch w soonhui & xj @ manhattan's on mon.

a short catchin up session

& listenin to em gg on abt their army stuffs.

had a nice time eatin w them.

yep. first time so many ppl came my hse for dinner.

n e company was kinda weird act.

frens + relatives + colleagues?

nd to make sure none was left out.

efforts needed to make tt happen :)

i'm glad e dinner went fine.
w lots laughters n crappin..

fr discussions on tv shows to teasings abt who n who.

it was a great nite...

filled with food n drinks n more food!

first 21st bday celeb of e yr over.

2 more to go in feb.

back to back summore.

issit sth gd?

muahaha.

it was a mass gatherin on sat nite.

lots faces...lots smiles...

lots hi-s...lots byes...

catchin up & photo-takings.

shan't say much.

let e fotos do e toking! :P

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- steamboat on wed-

so much food tt we needed 2tables!

my cousin's turn to serve everyone :P

shan's fast in smiling @ camera!

angela + lynn + shanimitatin 'sum1' he loves...is shan tryin to lick sum1?
e final foto!

(angela+lynn+shan+me, bro+adrian+huifang+yueyin)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

-soonhui's 21st bday celeb- me + shan + shuxian!

w sharon!
sx + chew + me!mini grp fotos w nh peeps!mini 2-5 gatherin? (too bad sum left early)

4-4 gang!

w more 4-4 peeps!

bday boy + his gang!

tt's all for now...shall get more fotos from e others soon!

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time to hit e books! :(

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almost 4 days had passed.

today isnt reali a gd day.

bad day...

hurt my toe today.

my poor poor toey.

it was so painful la...

bt i din realised tt it's bleeding n

my toenail is broken!!!

bt no worries i wun b like sx so er.

post up e pic of my sad sad toenail. oOps!

haha.

tsai flew back today oso.

time passes reali quickly wen she's back.

we onli met up w her once.

bt tt's gd enuf ba.

it's nt e quantity bt e quality rite?

muahaha!

anw, hope tt she'll be alright there.

hang on gal! u can do it de k?

we'll miss you!!!

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~reflections~

likes to read bloggers' entries on e last day & 1st day of every year.

they alw reflect wat they've gone tru & wat they hope to achieve.

every year... lots of tings will happen.

be it gd all bad...

u either choose to face em or avoid them.

2007

it has been a fast-paced year.

so fast so tt i've lost track of my own life.

lots tings happened.

lots lessons learnt.

well, i guess i've grown up quite a bit in 2007.

yep.

no longer holding on to sum issues as tightly as before.

no longer being so persistent in how tings shld work out.

getting over sum issues tt have been draggin me down.

我学会珍惜我身边的人

认清楚了关心我的人

更懂得应该珍惜自己

everyone will gain & lose.

so did i.

in tis year... i've gained more experience in life...

e politics...e so called friendships...e empty promises

realised tt nuttin in tis world is definite.

yep. tt's sth tt all of us shld hav alr noe since duno when.

but i guess, some parts of me dn wish to believe in tt.

tried to convince myself, to prove tt it's nt true.

我彻底的失败

彻底明白

原来坚持到底不一定会改变事实

i guess one major event tt happened tis yr is my ah ma's hospitalisation.

it dawned upon me tt i've been takin ppl ard me for granted

esp my family members.

i could stil rem how scared i was to lose her.

luckily she recuperates & is doin fine now.

so i guess, i muz n will make more time to visit her.

to tok to her in my CMI hokkien

to be there for her...

hopefully we can enter her world n share e pains.

i dn wish to have more regrets.

有多少人会在你身边不离不弃.

朋友,亲人,情人,还是同事?

自己做决定

2008 is finally here...

sure hope tt it wld b a fulfilling one n a much better one.

better if my wishes can b fulfilled

less accidents & bloodshed...

all e best to everyone out there!

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well...bz wk... act went to town 3 times in 4 days.

still rem i was still tellin pong on xmas eve

i din had e time to visit town durin tis xmas period.

how wrong i was.haha!

went to town on boxing day w chew.

had lunch w reeve tog w chew.

act tt was e first time i tok to him.

heard abt how dey spent their days in nh...

woo. exciting interesting.

haha!

thu.. a short reunion w e cli.

we act walked all e way fr bugis to ps to cine.

not reali a long walk thou...

as compared to e agreement we made tt day.

:)

thanks for e wonderful nite.

went to visit ahma today.

1st visit since she was discharged.

bt m glad tt she's doin so fine! :P

jus a lil too skinny ba...

chatted w her alone for more than an hour.

my hokkien reali cmi.

bt i'm glad she understood me.

jus hope to spend time w her n she wun feel tt sian.

i guess i'll reali make stm to visit her every now n den.

shall end here for now ba...

there r tings tt i wana say bt shall kp em off here for e time being...

so long till e nxt post...

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merry merry xmas everyone!

(a lil' late thou.hee!)

was super super bz...

ended up w a bz xmas tis 2007.

was bz workin...shoppin...eating...catchin up...

started on xmas eve...

had a long lunch cum dinner w cousins + colleague.

her last day @ jp.

it's a form of relief! muahaha!

e meal lasted for a reali long time.

jus kp chattin n chattin...

den it was shoppin w my cousins...

for my another cousin's weddin on xmas

cool rite? to hav weddin on xmas.haha!

we started lookin for clothes...

n soon it was time 4 me 2 rush home to put down e gifts & mit up w pong dey all!

first time counting down at chevrons...

first time i sang so many xmas songs at e 1st hr of xmas.

muahaha...

took sum fotos n watched chew & pong gettin high over their eng songs.

haha!

dey r like long lost music mates..

e celeb ended w BIG BREAKFAST @ MAC!

caught few hrs of slp b4 i went to buy my clothes.

din had e time 2 buy em on eve aft shoppin 4 so long...

so tired la!!!

finally reached e restaurant...

wow..like wat all my aunts say...

i tink everyone has grown up.

e dressing all diff le.

all pretty ladies le..

muahaha!

e few of us took alot of fotos..

as if we r e ones gettin married.

so funny!

first time i finished tt glass of red wine so fast...

first time i experienced e giddiness due to e alcohol.

all cousin's fault. ask drink everything at one go.

kept drinkin tea 2 get rid of e giddiness.

now i noe e power of alcohol alr.haha!

anw tis is e first time i took so many fotos durin e dinner too...

i guess weddin dinners is also another kinda gd chance

for ppl to catch up w each other.

:)

was so entertained by my niece n nephew!

dey r so so so cute!!!!!!!

...sum fotos on e weddin first...

fang+glynis+jariath+me!!!

e scene tt melts my heart totally!!

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stayed over at hosp on mon nite. well, tt was e first time i stayed over in a hosp. w my bro & younger cousin. no one else. nuttin much. it's jus another kinda experience. to b slpin in e 'open' wen anyone can jus cum over to u. bt i'm reali reali glad tt my ah ma is gettin reali well... went to visit her again tis mornin b4 i left 4 sch. chatted w her w my super lousy hokkien & took a short walk w her w e help of bro + nurse. m glad tt she's doin reali well. felt so much better...so much happier aft tis mornin... jus hope tt she'll eat more n more & gain back all e weight lost & she'll b able to go home!!!

managed to steal sum time to watch golden compass yday. it has been a reali long time since i had sum time to myself. haha. well, i was still afraid tt i mite dozed off durin e movie cos tt was wat happened durin lecture yday mornin. bt wat i wish to say is tt i reali reali like e movie. thou my fren's gf say e movie isn't nice. bt i totally disagree. it's a bit narnia-like, potter-like kinda movie. fantasy. sth tt wun happen in reality. yep. exciting movie. shld watch!

yep! tis is e pl where i was borned & e pl which heals my ah ma! :) :)

our slpin area tt nite. open to public.

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i'm reali reali tired...

losin touch on lots stuffs... by e time i reach hm everyday, it's bathing n slping. nutting else.

bt i bet all tis cant be compared to my ah ma...

gg tru all those to fight...

yep. all tis days i've been rushing here n dere...

go hosp early mornin den rush to sch/work...

droppin by to c her wenever i can...

neglectin everything else. yep. go sch bt nt full attention & no time for tutorials.

feel as if i'm gg to collapse anytime soon.

bt i'll stil hang on n con't w all tis.

cos...everytime i c her, my heart aches.

lots efforts ll b needed to fight e uncontrollables.

almost lost wen i started on e journey back alone.

oh god...pls all e gods out dere...

pls bless my ah ma...

she's still fightin n not givin up.

pls pls dn give up on her.

fulfil her wish & let her leave e cold lonely place.

let her go back to our comfy old hse.

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never felt so helpless before.

wat good can be done?

beyond wat i can do.

beyond wat we can do.

standin there, watchin, gg into daze.

became e onli ting i can do.

elva's song started playin in my player.

bt wat came to my mind wasnt e lyrics.

it was e memories & e celeb tt took place tis year.

such great differences, such great changes.

i guess tt's how unpredictable life is.

please let me hide into my own world for e time being.

please let e year end well...

please lessen e pain n sufferings.

please.

好无助 好难受 好孤独

它们坚持陪伴在她身旁.

没人可以分担她所承受的痛苦

请你们通通消失好吗!!!

让幸福温暖动力继续陪伴着她

看见她现在的状况

我的心好痛.

真的真的好痛.

*阿嬷, 请不要放弃. 我们一直都陪着您. 一定要坚持到底, 不要让我们失望. 因为我们非常非常爱您.*

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r kids nowadays more fortunate?

i bet they are!

my tutee jus got herself a pink DS Lite!

jus to get her to cut her long long hair, her mom had to get her a DS! jus lidat.

so xin fu lo...

bt of cos,

tt'll act spoil e kid too.

突然觉得一个人的事并不是真的一个人的事.

这就是我们常听到的 '对别人/社会负责' 吗?

我不明白... 到底是对自己负责比较重要还是对别人负责比较重要?

满足了别人, 自己会开心吗?

满足了自己, 别人的眼光, 看法, 你又要如何去面对?

明明不关他人的事, 但是总是会听到他们的意见...

明明不关我的事, 但是总是被拉进去...

到底应该是对自己负责呢? 还是应该考虑到其他人呢?

是对自己好, 还是自私?

站在这个的立场, 我明白它的想法,

站在那个的立场, 我明白它的处境, 它们的苦衷, 了解它的顾虑.

但是我又能这么做呢?

我不想想了

还是休息了.

否则, 他们又说我迷失了自己,

要我找回我自己...

gg to find myself now...

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oh yes!!! tsai's comin back sooN!!!

n she's comin back for 2 to 3 weeks!!!

woohoo!!! great news sia!!!!!!

cant wait!!!!

:) :) :) :)

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HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY SHINHUI!!!

yep.tis is the birthday gal w her bday cake.

simply love her bday cake.

it's super duper nice!!!

nice rite?

so... tis is e bday celeb i attended tis saturday.

miss chew shin hui's 21st bday.

our friendship started off wen i was employed by nets.

i've known her for onli... less than 6months i guessed.

initially, we were mere colleagues.

linked tog by work.

sumhow, we jus become closer friends

as we went out for dinner tog & started chattin n crappin more often.

i guess & hope tt e friendship tt's shared will be much cherished.

enjoy chattin w her, luffin at her laughters n our crappin session.

i guess tis is sth interesting abt human r/s. (:

wanted to reach e ulu chalet early de.

bt sumhow, i jus ended up super late w cheryl n clarence.

was tinkin if she'd realise tt i wasnt dere yet wen she called me.

tricked her tt i forgot abt her celeb & went hm alr.

din expect her to believe me. bt she reali did.

hopefully, she isnt tt affected by tt. muahaha!

yep. tt's all abt it ba.

sum catchin up w e other temps staffs & walkin ard e places lo.

got her a super big pooh balloon myself which was so attention grabbin all e way from town.

& shared w e others to get a mp3 for her

hopefully, she likes e gifts & e cards.

hope it's a memorable one for her too! :P

left shortly aft e cake cuttin session.

thanks to shenlyn & her parents for e free ride!

~e beautifully designed cake~

us w e bday gal + e popular mr wong.

another shot! (from left: cheryl, me, clarence, shin, shenlyn)

Shin:

hey gal, thanks alot for the invitation. i enjoyed myself alot. it's like a mini gathering for all of us too. u did a gr8 job in plannin yr bday celeb! i'm glad to noe u! thanks for all e help u've given. shan't say much here k? most of wat i wana say is alr in e card. yep! hope u reali enjoyed yrself. as requested, tis post is solely on yr bday, for u. thou e contents mite be a lil' random. hee! silly gal, dn tear while readin k? hee! send me e fotos of e big balloon k? i act forgot to snap a foto of it!!! & w u. haha. take great care of yrself! anything, i'm jus a phone call away k? :)

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felt so silly... it's jus a fone call to convey e msg & it is alr lidat...
pls pls...pls don let our worse fear come true...
bt perhaps, it wld be kinda selfish of us to hope tt way...
thou it hurts to see her in tt way...
issit a relief or a fear...

another tinkin session last nite...
was told tt i'm still a simple gal w simple tots...
simplicity is goOod...
is tt true??? i hope i'm n i hope i'll stay tt way for as long as possible.
bt both of us noe tt tis ll nt benefit me wen i reali stepped into e society.
meaning...i shld chge into sum1 scheming... sum1 who's no longer simple?
how long can one stay simple n innocent?
i bet it reali takes alot of... efforts to do so ba.
everyone came into this world...pure & clean...
bt wen we reali leave e world, how 'clean' & 'pure' can we be?
suddenly feel tt e workin society is kinda scary...
u never noe who'r reali frens w who & e treachery or tricks behind those smiles.
who wld we act chge into? wt wld happen if 2 gd frens enter e same company?
wld e disaster happen too? wld it affect their frenship?
who's true to u...who's not... how much do u believe in u/them?

~人与人之间的关系真的很复杂, 多少的真心, 多少的欺骗, 你又知道多少?~

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i guess tis month isnt a smooth sailin one afterall...

muz eat more apples to kp e doc away frm me... far far away.

sorethroat, flu, cough. den tis mornin tummy nt tt gd. vomitted my breakfast.

bt well, at least i'm feelin so much better now.

luck hasnt been gd either.

those plans made had to be abolish w e receipt of e news.

wat i predicted wld happen, happened last nite.

b4 tt it was still e war of silence.

bt still, at least there ll b peace for 3 days.

i dn wish to noe wat will happen aft tt.

tis isnt e first time i receive such calls le.

m i reali so lucky?

so nxt time if got lucky draws, i shldnt stay la.

shld jus leave & i'll win e grand prizes.

rec'd another call today sayin tt i've won e 3rd prize in e event @ esplanade last friday.

of cos, b4 tt dey alr asked me2attend & gif me my no.

bt i din go la. obviously sth's not rite lo.

den dey called me tt nite2go collect e prize & of cos i say i bz.

jus nw dey called & told me e prize is USD $50K.

woohooo! tempting rite? bt of cos, dn trust them so easily.

i jus played ard askin for sum details b4 sayin i'm bz & hung up.

muahaha...

if onli tis is true... imagine wat i can do w tt sum of money.

ok. wake up! e main idea of tis post is...

DON BE A VICTIM IN THESE KINDA SCAM!!!

REALITY HURTS.... THERE'S NO SUCH GOOD LOBANGS!!!!!!!

shld i make a report on tis??

muahaha!

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argh... i'm falllin sick... even b4 all e stuffs begin... all cos of a fried kueh. my throat is torturing me now... went to ah ma's hse on mon & realised tt she aged alot since e last time i saw her. haiz. gettin weaker too. n she jus cant stop her thoughts from gg wild. looking at her, stm i reali feel tt ageing is a scary process. bt at least managed to make her luff tt day at e expense of me n my nephew. was playin w him when i tripped n fell outside her room den wen we went to e living room, my nephew knocked his head! to tink he still imitate my fall by gg on his knees. haha. malu-ating. now my knees all blue black. haha! cant believe i was so 'lucky' tt day. soon aft tt, my nephew vomitted on me!!! ah! while all of us were enjoyin our ice-cream. i almost vomitted my icecream out too. cos e scene is too... unpleasant for me.haha! 2 of my aunts even threw away their barely eaten ice cream. haha! wat a bz day! :(

tues nite...i had my longest chat of e year ba... muahaha. from 10+ to almost 2am. thou we stopped for ard 40mins in b/w. yep. it was a nice chat. tok abt lots of stuffs. brought back alot of memories as we tok abt diff stuffs. it reali makes me wonder at times... is it good or bad to build up all those r/s & have those fears of em being affected by time & surroundings? well, enuff abt all this le ba. hey gal, duno if u'll read tis bt ya, even thou e past year haven been a smoothsailing one for u, don be too upset k? at times we'll have to go tru all this de. dn worry k? i'm sure e upcoming year would be better much better for u de k? smilez!

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ahHhHh...so fast nov le...hai... i'm gg to hav a super duper bz nov! omg... hopefully i'll survive. yep. it's e opp cost. my colleagues alw tell me to pia more wen young... tt's wat i'm doin now. bt hope i'm not like a candle buring at both ends... haha! so i guess i wun be bloggin tt often or 'seen' online le. haiz... bz bz bz... bt yep. at least time will pass fast fast n i can fall asleep e moment i hit my bed. tt will call off my nites wen i lied on my bed n cant get to slp at all... haha! time has been passin too quickly le... so fast so tt i'm lost! wk have been piling up & i duno wat to start on at all!
soon...i'll have to gif up my slp too...hopefully, it's worth it & it'll be a gd experience ba. muz hang hang hang on!!!! more coffees & chicken essences pls!!! more motivatioN!!! :)

seen sth which i dn reali like today. how can a middle aged person jus walk by herself w her daughter in e pram n ignoring e elderly behind?? i mean ok la...elderly mite walk slower bt not once she turned ard to check if e elderly is ok anot. n e distance b/w em jus got wider n wider... so disappointed in her for tt act of hers.. or issit becos it's her so i'm more affected & disappointed in her??? which is which? :(

你要扮演好那个角色呢?

当你到这个世上, 你变成了你父母的孩子.

当你大概三岁时, 你可能上了学, 做一位学生, 别人的朋友.

但是, 你依然是你父母的孩子.

当你接近二十岁左右, 也许你成了别人的男/女友.

但是, 你依然是你父母的孩子.

当你步入中年时, 也许你已经成了家, 当了别人的老公/老婆, 你孩子的爸爸/妈妈.

但是, 你依然是你父母的孩子.

你的选择有是什么?

如果连基本的都做不好...又何必谈其他的呢?

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