Tuesday, February 19, 2008

all i can say is...
LIFE is fragile...
whilst sum ppl r wasting their lives away...
sum r tryin so hard to stay alive.

which r u?

Friday, February 15, 2008

came w e intention to blog...
bt sumhow i jus stared at e empty screen for ages...
was awoken by a horrible nitemare tis morning...
sharon said it was e after-effects of wz's singing...
muahaha...i doubt so...
perhaps it's due to e lil' fear tt's hiding in a dark corner of my heart...

tis yr vday was spent w my dear frens @ K...
sumhow i was so so so tired...
bt still, e session turned out to be fun...
thanks alot for e cake sharon...
thanks wz for all e singing..
muahaha.

life's gonna be hectic soon i guess...
muz muz MUZ study.
pls get me into e muggin mode.
no more youtubing...
no more stoning sessions at my own personal time.
no more silly tinking...
yep...NO TIME!

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人与人之间的关系真的很奇怪
几时我才能猜透一切
看清楚周围的人
是敌是友 是陌生人 还是过路人

*我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什黱

我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻 彼此依赖
是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的*

...我真的不想懂得 也不想去猜...

Monday, February 11, 2008

wow...e past few days were kinda hectic. imagine i had 4 straight meals of steamboat since eve till 2nd day of cny... fei si le... muahaha. tis yr cny is a lil diff frm e previous yrs...alot of 1st times.


1st time there were so few ppl over@ my ah ma's hse. (paternal side).
1st time we spent cny @ my aunt's new hse. (maternal side)
1st time me n my bro stayed dere for so long n i chatted w ah ma for so long.
1st time my ah ma (maternal) joined us at da yi's hse on chu er...
seeing her clappin along as singing as my aunts sang crazily...
it was reali a nice yet simple scene filled w warmth.
i bet e glasses of red wine n XO aint e main culprit.
it's their nature. muahaha.
gr8 entertainment!

chu san is back to my aunt's new hse...
feeling bored...
me n cousins n bro went to complex n played badminton for 3 hrs!
realise i've ZERO stamina nw :(
nw, e tot of 10km scares me...
my body is no longer tt gd...
train train train.
pls gif me all e motivation to start runnin again.

yday was e 1st time i went to wk for a concert.
yep...a brand new experience.
sth like usher n traffic control.
thou a lil tiring...it's kinda fun ba...
n i get to watch e concert.
thou it's e concert tt is filled w aunties n uncles.
yep. it's e duno wat 888 concert w tt famous guy.
who says aunties cant hav idols?
all i can say is they can b worse than youngsters, everyone of us!
scary peeps who can get so upset wen we dn allow em to go near him.
one of em act shouted fr her seat n broke down, scaring e popular guy.
wk ended @ 11pm eventually n i was so so shagged at e end of e day.
whole day listenin to old hokkien songs...

chu er at da yi's hse oso listen to old hokkien songs.
tis is e 1st cny i'm exposed to so many old hokkien songs...
i need more new songs to get over w all e old hokkien songs!!!
HEELLLPPP!!!

...sum fotos...

...our big big family...(bt tis is not e full force)

my ah ma w her daughters!!! ( missing 2 aunties)

Thursday, February 07, 2008

yx & chunyu's 21st!

haven been bloggin for quite a while...
cos i'm sick!...hai. yep. definitely e wrong time to b sick.
mite b e after effects of all e parties n shoppin...haha..
had lots fun @ yx's n chunyu's 21st parties...

been years since e last time we met up.
i'm glad tt chunyu invited us to her party.
we've known each other since p4!
so so so long...

mixed feelings actually wen i first received her invitation.
afterall we haven met for so long.
i bet most of e ppl dere were strangers
n i dn reali like tt kinda situation.

i'm so glad tt tings werent tt bad at all...
e 3 of us jus kept chattin while e bday gal mingle ard.
being e oldest frens ard...
we were act e first batch 2 take fotos w her :)

den we waited till most of her guests leave b4 she's free to chat longer w us.
haha...
n tt day ended beautifully w our "Leap Year" date.
of cos...hopefully we wun mit up onli once after every 4 yrs.

oh yes. i muz compliment her other frens.
yep. other than e normal present, dey gt her a cake.
at e first look, we duno if tt's a cake or a sushi platter at all...
wonderfully disguised w salmons n rolls n even tempura.
haha. bt of cos dey r all part of e cake! special.

reunited after so many years... too bad kailing's sick n cant make it:(

bday gal w her dearie...

one more time!!!

(look at her cake!!!)

anw...it's e mousey year... hope tt tis yr wld b gr8 for everyone out dere!

HUAT AH!!!

Thursday, January 31, 2008

sooo fast...

e first month of 2008 flew past jus lidat...

first 3 days of feb r all party days...

1st feb - ziyan

2nd feb - yingxiu

3rd feb - esther (pri sch fren)

2008 = year of parties...




i guess i'll hav to gif ziyan's party a miss cos of my irritatin tutee who refused to chge tml's tuition!

hai...felt so bad towards ziyan...

so sorry so sorry...

i'm so sorry...




lots to say bt lazy to blog...nxt time ba...




watching romantic princess on channel u.

2nd time...still as nice...

muahaha. even my mom say wu zun is shuai!!!!! woohooO!!!

a short mv for e show...

love e way jin cares for xiaomai...

e nonchalant yet thoughtful jin...

alw put e welfare of xiaomai b4 his...

shld watch tis show!!!

love e show love e characters love tis song! :)

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Monday, January 14, 2008

2nd wk of 2008- fulfilling yet bz!

bz bz wk!
with cleanin up my hse...
with e energy+time consuming bday present.
tried to make my hse more decent lookin for e steamboat on wed nite.
tiring...
to prepare for food & clean up e hse.
ages since i c my hse so tidy.
yet, there r still more room for improvement. :P
had lunch w soonhui & xj @ manhattan's on mon.
a short catchin up session
& listenin to em gg on abt their army stuffs.
had a nice time eatin w them.

yep. first time so many ppl came my hse for dinner.
n e company was kinda weird act.
frens + relatives + colleagues?
nd to make sure none was left out.
efforts needed to make tt happen :)
i'm glad e dinner went fine.
w lots laughters n crappin..
fr discussions on tv shows to teasings abt who n who.
it was a great nite...
filled with food n drinks n more food!

first 21st bday celeb of e yr over.
2 more to go in feb.
back to back summore.
issit sth gd?
muahaha.

it was a mass gatherin on sat nite.
lots faces...lots smiles...
lots hi-s...lots byes...
catchin up & photo-takings.
shan't say much.

let e fotos do e toking! :P
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- steamboat on wed-

so much food tt we needed 2tables!

my cousin's turn to serve everyone :P

shan's fast in smiling @ camera!

angela + lynn + shanimitatin 'sum1' he loves...is shan tryin to lick sum1?
e final foto!

(angela+lynn+shan+me, bro+adrian+huifang+yueyin)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

-soonhui's 21st bday celeb- me + shan + shuxian!

w sharon!
sx + chew + me!mini grp fotos w nh peeps!mini 2-5 gatherin? (too bad sum left early)

4-4 gang!

w more 4-4 peeps!

bday boy + his gang!

tt's all for now...shall get more fotos from e others soon!

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time to hit e books! :(

Friday, January 04, 2008

almost 4 days had passed.
today isnt reali a gd day.
bad day...


hurt my toe today.
my poor poor toey.
it was so painful la...
bt i din realised tt it's bleeding n
my toenail is broken!!!
bt no worries i wun b like sx so er.
post up e pic of my sad sad toenail. oOps!
haha.


tsai flew back today oso.
time passes reali quickly wen she's back.
we onli met up w her once.
bt tt's gd enuf ba.
it's nt e quantity bt e quality rite?
muahaha!


anw, hope tt she'll be alright there.
hang on gal! u can do it de k?


we'll miss you!!!

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

~reflections~

likes to read bloggers' entries on e last day & 1st day of every year.
they alw reflect wat they've gone tru & wat they hope to achieve.
every year... lots of tings will happen.
be it gd all bad...
u either choose to face em or avoid them.

2007
it has been a fast-paced year.
so fast so tt i've lost track of my own life.
lots tings happened.
lots lessons learnt.

well, i guess i've grown up quite a bit in 2007.
yep.
no longer holding on to sum issues as tightly as before.
no longer being so persistent in how tings shld work out.
getting over sum issues tt have been draggin me down.

我学会珍惜我身边的人
认清楚了关心我的人
更懂得应该珍惜自己

everyone will gain & lose.
so did i.
in tis year... i've gained more experience in life...
e politics...e so called friendships...e empty promises

realised tt nuttin in tis world is definite.
yep. tt's sth tt all of us shld hav alr noe since duno when.
but i guess, some parts of me dn wish to believe in tt.
tried to convince myself, to prove tt it's nt true.

我彻底的失败
彻底明白
原来坚持到底不一定会改变事实

i guess one major event tt happened tis yr is my ah ma's hospitalisation.
it dawned upon me tt i've been takin ppl ard me for granted
esp my family members.
i could stil rem how scared i was to lose her.
luckily she recuperates & is doin fine now.

so i guess, i muz n will make more time to visit her.
to tok to her in my CMI hokkien
to be there for her...
hopefully we can enter her world n share e pains.
i dn wish to have more regrets.

有多少人会在你身边不离不弃.
朋友,亲人,情人,还是同事?
自己做决定

2008 is finally here...
sure hope tt it wld b a fulfilling one n a much better one.
better if my wishes can b fulfilled
less accidents & bloodshed...
all e best to everyone out there!

Saturday, December 29, 2007

well...bz wk... act went to town 3 times in 4 days.
still rem i was still tellin pong on xmas eve
i din had e time to visit town durin tis xmas period.
how wrong i was.haha!
went to town on boxing day w chew.
had lunch w reeve tog w chew.
act tt was e first time i tok to him.
heard abt how dey spent their days in nh...
woo. exciting interesting.
haha!
thu.. a short reunion w e cli.
we act walked all e way fr bugis to ps to cine.
not reali a long walk thou...
as compared to e agreement we made tt day.
:)
thanks for e wonderful nite.
went to visit ahma today.
1st visit since she was discharged.
bt m glad tt she's doin so fine! :P
jus a lil too skinny ba...
chatted w her alone for more than an hour.
my hokkien reali cmi.
bt i'm glad she understood me.
jus hope to spend time w her n she wun feel tt sian.
i guess i'll reali make stm to visit her every now n den.
shall end here for now ba...
there r tings tt i wana say bt shall kp em off here for e time being...
so long till e nxt post...

Friday, December 28, 2007

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

merry merry xmas everyone!
(a lil' late thou.hee!)
was super super bz...
ended up w a bz xmas tis 2007.
was bz workin...shoppin...eating...catchin up...

started on xmas eve...
had a long lunch cum dinner w cousins + colleague.
her last day @ jp.
it's a form of relief! muahaha!
e meal lasted for a reali long time.
jus kp chattin n chattin...

den it was shoppin w my cousins...
for my another cousin's weddin on xmas
cool rite? to hav weddin on xmas.haha!
we started lookin for clothes...
n soon it was time 4 me 2 rush home to put down e gifts & mit up w pong dey all!


first time counting down at chevrons...
first time i sang so many xmas songs at e 1st hr of xmas.
muahaha...
took sum fotos n watched chew & pong gettin high over their eng songs.
haha!

dey r like long lost music mates..
e celeb ended w BIG BREAKFAST @ MAC!
caught few hrs of slp b4 i went to buy my clothes.
din had e time 2 buy em on eve aft shoppin 4 so long...
so tired la!!!

finally reached e restaurant...
wow..like wat all my aunts say...
i tink everyone has grown up.
e dressing all diff le.
all pretty ladies le..
muahaha!
e few of us took alot of fotos..
as if we r e ones gettin married.
so funny!

first time i finished tt glass of red wine so fast...
first time i experienced e giddiness due to e alcohol.
all cousin's fault. ask drink everything at one go.
kept drinkin tea 2 get rid of e giddiness.
now i noe e power of alcohol alr.haha!

anw tis is e first time i took so many fotos durin e dinner too...
i guess weddin dinners is also another kinda gd chance
for ppl to catch up w each other.
:)


was so entertained by my niece n nephew!
dey r so so so cute!!!!!!!
...sum fotos on e weddin first...
fang+glynis+jariath+me!!!



e scene tt melts my heart totally!!

Thursday, December 13, 2007

stayed over at hosp on mon nite. well, tt was e first time i stayed over in a hosp. w my bro & younger cousin. no one else. nuttin much. it's jus another kinda experience. to b slpin in e 'open' wen anyone can jus cum over to u. bt i'm reali reali glad tt my ah ma is gettin reali well... went to visit her again tis mornin b4 i left 4 sch. chatted w her w my super lousy hokkien & took a short walk w her w e help of bro + nurse. m glad tt she's doin reali well. felt so much better...so much happier aft tis mornin... jus hope tt she'll eat more n more & gain back all e weight lost & she'll b able to go home!!!

managed to steal sum time to watch golden compass yday. it has been a reali long time since i had sum time to myself. haha. well, i was still afraid tt i mite dozed off durin e movie cos tt was wat happened durin lecture yday mornin. bt wat i wish to say is tt i reali reali like e movie. thou my fren's gf say e movie isn't nice. bt i totally disagree. it's a bit narnia-like, potter-like kinda movie. fantasy. sth tt wun happen in reality. yep. exciting movie. shld watch!
yep! tis is e pl where i was borned & e pl which heals my ah ma! :) :)
our slpin area tt nite. open to public.

Sunday, December 09, 2007

i'm reali reali tired...
losin touch on lots stuffs... by e time i reach hm everyday, it's bathing n slping. nutting else.
bt i bet all tis cant be compared to my ah ma...
gg tru all those to fight...
yep. all tis days i've been rushing here n dere...
go hosp early mornin den rush to sch/work...
droppin by to c her wenever i can...
neglectin everything else. yep. go sch bt nt full attention & no time for tutorials.
feel as if i'm gg to collapse anytime soon.
bt i'll stil hang on n con't w all tis.
cos...everytime i c her, my heart aches.
lots efforts ll b needed to fight e uncontrollables.
almost lost wen i started on e journey back alone.
oh god...pls all e gods out dere...
pls bless my ah ma...
she's still fightin n not givin up.
pls pls dn give up on her.
fulfil her wish & let her leave e cold lonely place.
let her go back to our comfy old hse.

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never felt so helpless before.
wat good can be done?
beyond wat i can do.
beyond wat we can do.
standin there, watchin, gg into daze.
became e onli ting i can do.
elva's song started playin in my player.
bt wat came to my mind wasnt e lyrics.
it was e memories & e celeb tt took place tis year.
such great differences, such great changes.
i guess tt's how unpredictable life is.
please let me hide into my own world for e time being.
please let e year end well...
please lessen e pain n sufferings.
please.

好无助 好难受 好孤独
它们坚持陪伴在她身旁.
没人可以分担她所承受的痛苦
请你们通通消失好吗!!!
让幸福温暖动力继续陪伴着她
看见她现在的状况
我的心好痛.
真的真的好痛.

*阿嬷, 请不要放弃. 我们一直都陪着您. 一定要坚持到底, 不要让我们失望. 因为我们非常非常爱您.*