r kids nowadays more fortunate?

i bet they are!

my tutee jus got herself a pink DS Lite!

jus to get her to cut her long long hair, her mom had to get her a DS! jus lidat.

so xin fu lo...

bt of cos,

tt'll act spoil e kid too.

突然觉得一个人的事并不是真的一个人的事.

这就是我们常听到的 '对别人/社会负责' 吗?

我不明白... 到底是对自己负责比较重要还是对别人负责比较重要?

满足了别人, 自己会开心吗?

满足了自己, 别人的眼光, 看法, 你又要如何去面对?

明明不关他人的事, 但是总是会听到他们的意见...

明明不关我的事, 但是总是被拉进去...

到底应该是对自己负责呢? 还是应该考虑到其他人呢?

是对自己好, 还是自私?

站在这个的立场, 我明白它的想法,

站在那个的立场, 我明白它的处境, 它们的苦衷, 了解它的顾虑.

但是我又能这么做呢?

我不想想了

还是休息了.

否则, 他们又说我迷失了自己,

要我找回我自己...

gg to find myself now...

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oh yes!!! tsai's comin back sooN!!!

n she's comin back for 2 to 3 weeks!!!

woohoo!!! great news sia!!!!!!

cant wait!!!!

:) :) :) :)

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HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY SHINHUI!!!

yep.tis is the birthday gal w her bday cake.

simply love her bday cake.

it's super duper nice!!!

nice rite?

so... tis is e bday celeb i attended tis saturday.

miss chew shin hui's 21st bday.

our friendship started off wen i was employed by nets.

i've known her for onli... less than 6months i guessed.

initially, we were mere colleagues.

linked tog by work.

sumhow, we jus become closer friends

as we went out for dinner tog & started chattin n crappin more often.

i guess & hope tt e friendship tt's shared will be much cherished.

enjoy chattin w her, luffin at her laughters n our crappin session.

i guess tis is sth interesting abt human r/s. (:

wanted to reach e ulu chalet early de.

bt sumhow, i jus ended up super late w cheryl n clarence.

was tinkin if she'd realise tt i wasnt dere yet wen she called me.

tricked her tt i forgot abt her celeb & went hm alr.

din expect her to believe me. bt she reali did.

hopefully, she isnt tt affected by tt. muahaha!

yep. tt's all abt it ba.

sum catchin up w e other temps staffs & walkin ard e places lo.

got her a super big pooh balloon myself which was so attention grabbin all e way from town.

& shared w e others to get a mp3 for her

hopefully, she likes e gifts & e cards.

hope it's a memorable one for her too! :P

left shortly aft e cake cuttin session.

thanks to shenlyn & her parents for e free ride!

~e beautifully designed cake~

us w e bday gal + e popular mr wong.

another shot! (from left: cheryl, me, clarence, shin, shenlyn)

Shin:

hey gal, thanks alot for the invitation. i enjoyed myself alot. it's like a mini gathering for all of us too. u did a gr8 job in plannin yr bday celeb! i'm glad to noe u! thanks for all e help u've given. shan't say much here k? most of wat i wana say is alr in e card. yep! hope u reali enjoyed yrself. as requested, tis post is solely on yr bday, for u. thou e contents mite be a lil' random. hee! silly gal, dn tear while readin k? hee! send me e fotos of e big balloon k? i act forgot to snap a foto of it!!! & w u. haha. take great care of yrself! anything, i'm jus a phone call away k? :)

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felt so silly... it's jus a fone call to convey e msg & it is alr lidat...
pls pls...pls don let our worse fear come true...
bt perhaps, it wld be kinda selfish of us to hope tt way...
thou it hurts to see her in tt way...
issit a relief or a fear...

another tinkin session last nite...
was told tt i'm still a simple gal w simple tots...
simplicity is goOod...
is tt true??? i hope i'm n i hope i'll stay tt way for as long as possible.
bt both of us noe tt tis ll nt benefit me wen i reali stepped into e society.
meaning...i shld chge into sum1 scheming... sum1 who's no longer simple?
how long can one stay simple n innocent?
i bet it reali takes alot of... efforts to do so ba.
everyone came into this world...pure & clean...
bt wen we reali leave e world, how 'clean' & 'pure' can we be?
suddenly feel tt e workin society is kinda scary...
u never noe who'r reali frens w who & e treachery or tricks behind those smiles.
who wld we act chge into? wt wld happen if 2 gd frens enter e same company?
wld e disaster happen too? wld it affect their frenship?
who's true to u...who's not... how much do u believe in u/them?

~人与人之间的关系真的很复杂, 多少的真心, 多少的欺骗, 你又知道多少?~

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i guess tis month isnt a smooth sailin one afterall...

muz eat more apples to kp e doc away frm me... far far away.

sorethroat, flu, cough. den tis mornin tummy nt tt gd. vomitted my breakfast.

bt well, at least i'm feelin so much better now.

luck hasnt been gd either.

those plans made had to be abolish w e receipt of e news.

wat i predicted wld happen, happened last nite.

b4 tt it was still e war of silence.

bt still, at least there ll b peace for 3 days.

i dn wish to noe wat will happen aft tt.

tis isnt e first time i receive such calls le.

m i reali so lucky?

so nxt time if got lucky draws, i shldnt stay la.

shld jus leave & i'll win e grand prizes.

rec'd another call today sayin tt i've won e 3rd prize in e event @ esplanade last friday.

of cos, b4 tt dey alr asked me2attend & gif me my no.

bt i din go la. obviously sth's not rite lo.

den dey called me tt nite2go collect e prize & of cos i say i bz.

jus nw dey called & told me e prize is USD $50K.

woohooo! tempting rite? bt of cos, dn trust them so easily.

i jus played ard askin for sum details b4 sayin i'm bz & hung up.

muahaha...

if onli tis is true... imagine wat i can do w tt sum of money.

ok. wake up! e main idea of tis post is...

DON BE A VICTIM IN THESE KINDA SCAM!!!

REALITY HURTS.... THERE'S NO SUCH GOOD LOBANGS!!!!!!!

shld i make a report on tis??

muahaha!

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argh... i'm falllin sick... even b4 all e stuffs begin... all cos of a fried kueh. my throat is torturing me now... went to ah ma's hse on mon & realised tt she aged alot since e last time i saw her. haiz. gettin weaker too. n she jus cant stop her thoughts from gg wild. looking at her, stm i reali feel tt ageing is a scary process. bt at least managed to make her luff tt day at e expense of me n my nephew. was playin w him when i tripped n fell outside her room den wen we went to e living room, my nephew knocked his head! to tink he still imitate my fall by gg on his knees. haha. malu-ating. now my knees all blue black. haha! cant believe i was so 'lucky' tt day. soon aft tt, my nephew vomitted on me!!! ah! while all of us were enjoyin our ice-cream. i almost vomitted my icecream out too. cos e scene is too... unpleasant for me.haha! 2 of my aunts even threw away their barely eaten ice cream. haha! wat a bz day! :(

tues nite...i had my longest chat of e year ba... muahaha. from 10+ to almost 2am. thou we stopped for ard 40mins in b/w. yep. it was a nice chat. tok abt lots of stuffs. brought back alot of memories as we tok abt diff stuffs. it reali makes me wonder at times... is it good or bad to build up all those r/s & have those fears of em being affected by time & surroundings? well, enuff abt all this le ba. hey gal, duno if u'll read tis bt ya, even thou e past year haven been a smoothsailing one for u, don be too upset k? at times we'll have to go tru all this de. dn worry k? i'm sure e upcoming year would be better much better for u de k? smilez!

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ahHhHh...so fast nov le...hai... i'm gg to hav a super duper bz nov! omg... hopefully i'll survive. yep. it's e opp cost. my colleagues alw tell me to pia more wen young... tt's wat i'm doin now. bt hope i'm not like a candle buring at both ends... haha! so i guess i wun be bloggin tt often or 'seen' online le. haiz... bz bz bz... bt yep. at least time will pass fast fast n i can fall asleep e moment i hit my bed. tt will call off my nites wen i lied on my bed n cant get to slp at all... haha! time has been passin too quickly le... so fast so tt i'm lost! wk have been piling up & i duno wat to start on at all!
soon...i'll have to gif up my slp too...hopefully, it's worth it & it'll be a gd experience ba. muz hang hang hang on!!!! more coffees & chicken essences pls!!! more motivatioN!!! :)

seen sth which i dn reali like today. how can a middle aged person jus walk by herself w her daughter in e pram n ignoring e elderly behind?? i mean ok la...elderly mite walk slower bt not once she turned ard to check if e elderly is ok anot. n e distance b/w em jus got wider n wider... so disappointed in her for tt act of hers.. or issit becos it's her so i'm more affected & disappointed in her??? which is which? :(

你要扮演好那个角色呢?

当你到这个世上, 你变成了你父母的孩子.

当你大概三岁时, 你可能上了学, 做一位学生, 别人的朋友.

但是, 你依然是你父母的孩子.

当你接近二十岁左右, 也许你成了别人的男/女友.

但是, 你依然是你父母的孩子.

当你步入中年时, 也许你已经成了家, 当了别人的老公/老婆, 你孩子的爸爸/妈妈.

但是, 你依然是你父母的孩子.

你的选择有是什么?

如果连基本的都做不好...又何必谈其他的呢?

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another wk has passed...hmmmm...went to visit my nephew on tues! super duper long din c him le. well, din expect to stay for e whole day de...but...he become so clever le...so much tt we can trick him w our usual tricks to get away! he jus hold my index finger tightly & refused to let me outta his sight. yep. plus e fact tt he's sick, i cant bear to leave him. so ended up kpin him company for e whole day. even brot him to c e doc. alr forgotten e fact tt young kids r scared of 'masked' doc. haha. till he started crying. 'doc bite bite!' omg. tis was wat he 'complained' to e nurses outside. onli managed to zao wen he went to slp. haha. was so tired at e end of e day. babysitting is hard job eh...haha. bt yep, seeing him smile makes everything worthwhile...

how i wish to go back to my childhood days...

e smile which alw melts my heart...

wearing his shoes by himself...clever boy :P

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i was told by sum1 tt my previous posts were v.emo...

mayb ba...

mood wasn't tt well.

bt not due to any particular reason la.

there'll definitely be a period of time when i nd to shout out everything.

empty my mind of everything.

chatted w daryl today.

he mentioned abt sec sch days...

he said he had e most fun w our batch.

haha. i totally agreed w him.

our batch rocks!

den he mentioned abt another senior.

one who has alw been e target of teasings & mockings...

both of us felt guilty abt tt

cos more or less we did all those too.

bt at least we din do tt in front of him la

bad mouth behind ba.

g.u.i.l.t.y

i guess most of us will haf tis kinda feelings at times

all of us will do tis kinda tings too.

but have we spare a tot for e victim?

at times i guess e ans is NO.

doin tt is bad. mockin or teasing in front of e person is WORST.

i bet none of us wana become e victim oso.

perhaps it's cos we were young at tt pt of time.

年少无知

can i use tt excuse 4 my involvement too?

well, i guess most of us have grown up alr.

shall strive to be a better person.

wahaha.

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*What Hurts The Most*

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ It

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That’s what I was trying to do

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love tis song...

thou it's sad & makes me emo aft listening it at times.

muahaha!

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recently there r quite a no. of news on their romance.

no...not ah xin n faye but ah Qing n Faye.

well, i admire their courage to make their romance known n show their love affair in e entertainment world esp when there r so many 'doggies' in their cty.

seriously hope it'd last & not be affected by e media or watsoever.

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*gg to restrict myself to 30mins for facebooking each time i cum online!*

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went to visit soonhui laz nite w e usual ppl...

glad to c tt he shld be recovering quite well.

aft we left e hse & sx gave tl a ride,

pong mentioned tt he's hungry & there we go...

JP Mac for supper.

wahaha.

chatted for quite sum while..

n listened to him abt his trip to Langkawi.

omg!

it further tempts me to leave tis hectic city.

to sumwhere where e lifestyle is much much slower & peaceful.

mayb i shld start saving up now...

enjoyed e chat last nite.

:)

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a short phone call... a short sms... a short period of time...

it'll reflect e r/s b/w 2 ppl.

i like to observe e crowd, e ppl ard me.

i like to be respected... to be given enuf space to do my own stuffs.

i like it wen e ppl ard me are sensitive towards my feelings.

not over-sensitive of cos.

i like it wen ppl clear up tings w me n not leave me in doubt.

hate it wen i'm like taken for granted.

hate it wen i'm being maligned n not given a chance to defend myself.

hate it wen i'm misunderstood by a fren.

i like it wen i noe e ppl ard me cares.

hate it wen i'm treated w coldness & rudeness.

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突然好想好想离开这里

离开这喧闹的城市

离开周围的人

到一个宁静的地方或岛屿

安安静静地休息,

我不贪心, 三四天就好了

就让我好好充电

好好享受一下宁静的生活

我想这是大多数城市人所面对的事情吧...

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positivism... realism... interpretivism...

durkheim...comte...spencer...weber...

i cant take all at one go!!!

help!!!

*trying to find e sociologist in me... as for e counselling...we shall see...*

:(

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well... hectic bt enjoyable wkend! yep! enjoyed myself super duper loads! even thou i ended my makeup lect @ 10pm on fri nite & had to wake up at 7.30am. muahaha! had to gif e sentosa trip a miss cos i've alr promised to mit up w my fellow band mates on sat. e last time all of us got tog was....was....4yrs back? i cant believe i couldnt rem so many ppl! most of em are my juniors who are 2yrs younger than us. neither did i tink tt we could act communicate so well thou it's been so long since we meet. imagine we act. chatted till almost 11pm & we left is cos swensen's closing alr!!! obtained lots updates from em & we took photos to commemorate tis day. muahaha. all thanks to daryl who took e efforts to org tis mini gathering. I guess stm as we grow up, we'll have chances to mit up w ppl whom we've not seen for ages & even thou there mite be sum awkwardness initially, it mite not last long too. I bet nuttin beats seeing your fren standing happily, chatting in front of u...

Den sunday came. dragged myself outta bed, feeling e pain in my tummy. another gastric attack? mayb. ate a pill immediately & had my brunch b4 i started preparing to go wk. wk was alright since i've e company of e crazy gal. (muaahaha! dn kill me/ start beating me after reading this k?) well, it's act my first time wk9 4hrs on sundays. other times i wk for e full 8hrs. mayb tt's y ba. first time in my stay dere, i act forgot to log out on time! anw, aft wk, went to mit shan & meikee for dinner first b4 sx joined us w her parents. muahaha! i like her parents siaz. damn on & enthu! yep! dey went to sing k w us too. eh no, i mean dey took their own room, we took our own. poor sx had to sing in 2 rooms. pro gal eh? haha! well, act we were onli supposed to sing for 3hrs bt sumhow, e ppl forgotten abt us & we sang till we drop. haha. nah, we sang 4hrs b4 leaving. ultimate le. i was freaking tired after tt can. haha! but yep, i'm sure all of us had lots fun. took sum funny videos. e downfall of xxx. muahaha! n some fotos. from e singing session, i discover another side of our dear shan. hahaha! n poor sx, sang till she no voice lidat. shall post e pics up bt guess, i shall leave e videos for myself. too hilarious & face-throwing le. e sudden coldness & hotness + e drinks muz have done sth to our mentality & made us all high & crazy for e moment.

well, din had so much fun over e weekend for quite a long while. i'm glad tt i managed to find time for my own social life. thou i hope i wun be paying a price for it. haha! reali reali luff alot tis wkend n i guess e weariness tt i'm facing rite now is worthy for all e fun. i guess we shld all learn to cherish our chance to enjoy ourselves & create memories for us to relive in future. who noes wen can we enjoy such moments again? another gathering/ outing pls???

photos time!

~Daryl's 21st bday celeb~

e bday boy cum organiser (our 'dear' senior. muahaha!)

tryin his best to stretch open his eyes widely...

~e gals~~NHSB cornet section 2002~
(missing quite a big portion of ppl)

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crazy session @ K- 141007

warming up for e excitement...

~e start of e high-ness~

SUPERMAN!!! FLY!!!

~ tt's all for now! :P ~

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hmmm...life recently has slowed down a bit. not workin so much & act stoppin soon. met up w sx to have pizza lunch on mon! been craving so much for it! muahaha! went down to my RC to help pong book e pit for 3 consecutive days! all i can say is tt their service is LOUSY! it don have to be so troublesome de lo & poor pong had to make so many unanswered calls & wasted trips...

it's e first time we book & it's alr lidat. luckily in e end we still managed to get e pits. looking forward to e bbq on saturday! guess sum of us hav to be dere early to clean up. it's so dirty there!!! haha! i wan eat BBQ sotong! muahaha!

today's e official last day of my bro's sec sch life...

suddenly i cant reali rem wat did we do on our last sch day in NHSS!!!

i can rem grad nite etc... bt nt last day of sch.

can sum1 refresh my memory???

haha! suddenly miss e laksa there... & e fried mee etc.

wahaha!

miss playin netball/captain ball in quadrangle...

miss e band practices & performance.

e "BZCC" area.

wahaha!

不知为何心情有时有点乱, 不是难过而是有点不知所措的感觉.

可能是因为有了自己的空间有了自己的时间吧. 也不知道在做什么...

可能就是这样吧. 我想人都是奇怪的动物.

有时会突然怀念起那些时光, 虽然当时的我可能是很讨厌那些日子的.

有时以为一切都已经过去,

但是总是会有一些无聊的人或事再次把一切又提起

引起又一起的风波和困扰

有些人能够把欢笑带给你, 而有些就是专门让你不爽

你身边又有多少这些人呢?

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是非题
歌手：范玮琪

每段故事都有一篇剧情

每段爱情都像动人旋律

一颗真心却只向着你前进

也许爱越单纯越着迷你

是窗外另外一片风景

在你眼里我是什么关系

你的呼吸藏在我的爱情里

何时能诚实面对自己

我们从不开口那个言语

那一句我爱你

永远像少了勇气

别人都说

我和你之间的关系

没有人相信只有关心

我们从不正视那个问题

那一些是非题

总让人伤透脑筋

我会期待

爱情盛开那一个黎明

一定会有美丽的爱情

*fallin in love with this song*

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